I am sorry to report that a week off from the computer, while somewhat helpful, was not enough time to get my life sorted out and completely back on track. To my disappointment, I do not have anything profound to report.
In fact, one of the things that was really bothering me last week was my lack of time for reflection (profound or otherwise). Although you might not guess it based on my blog, I enjoy thinking deep thoughts, and it’s really quite difficult to ponder serious things on very little sleep, while holding a howling newborn, trying to keep the 20 month old from flushing crayons down the toilet, and helping the three year old find her baby doll’s nightgown, without which said babydoll is apparently “really forlorn.”
A good friend of mine recently told me that she found the transition to three children difficult too, and that it changed the type of mother she is, in that she had to decide what was going to be important for her and let the rest go.
Honestly, I really didn’t think adding one more kid to the mix was going to make that big a difference in my life. For many people it probably doesn’t. I’d love to tell you I’m That Mom who has a laundry system and an ingenious way to do it all, but I’m not. In a sense, having three kids is presenting me with a great opportunity to take a step back and, as my friend suggested, evaluate what is really important to me – what I will prioritize in this season of life and what I will let go.
Although I haven’t quite finished answering those questions for myself (see above reference to lack of sleep and opportunities for quiet reflection!) I do know that blogging is a great creative outlet for me and though I might have some weeks where I don’t post as much as before, I am glad to be back.