It’s so easy to settle complacently into sinful self pride, isn’t it? Life goes along smoothly, we make plans, bring them to fruition, and congratulate ourselves for a job well done. “I can handle this,” we say, “no big deal” and save our prayer time for the “big stuff.”
But sometimes, in His mercy, God draws us up short and calls our bluff. Suddenly we are reminded that we’re not the hot stuff we imagined, and that we need to rely on God for even the most normal occurences of life.
God knows our tendency toward arrogance and self-reliance. James chapter 4 tells us,
“Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to such and such a city, and spend a year there and engage in business and make a profit.” Yet you do not know what your life will be like tomorrow. You are just a vapor that appears for a little while and then vanishes away. Instead, you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and also do this or that.” But as it is, you boast in your arrogance; all such boasting is evil.”
Over the past few days we have had some frightening news about the new baby. There are complications and some things are going wrong. We are following the doctor’s instructions and doing what we can, but we have been forcefully driven to our knees in fervent prayer for this precious child. It was so easy to forget that it truly is a miracle that God could knit together a perfect human being from a few cells. It’s so easy to take pregnancy for granted – after all, our culture spends an awful lot of time and effort on preventing pregnancies, so certainly if you’re NOT preventing one, it should go smoothly for sure, right? I remember in High School the mom of one of my best friends declared that in her family, people got pregnant just by sneezing. 🙂 Certainly for many people pregnancies happen just as planned, go smoothly, and have perfect results.
But we should not forget that we are fearfully and wonderfully made. God knits us together in our mother’s womb, He knows us before we are even conceived, and our times are in His hands. As our pastor, Dr. Blackwood often says, “God controls all the providences of life – the things we say “just happen” to us.”
So here I am, humbly repenting my arrogance, beseeching our loving God for my child. I must not succumb to worries and fears, but rather rely on what I know to be true: God loves us, God is good, and whatever God ordains is right. May He be glorified in the lives of the Gillespie family, even the smallest among us.